What to do?

Where do you start when you haven't blogged in?.. I don't even know.

I could start with the excuses that I've got, but they're lame, and there's no point except sounding lame, which I'd rather avoid. I think it has to do with me being too busy, and taking on too many things. It's hard to keep yourself accountable, when you're so widely spread. But, this is my own fault because I commit to too many things, and then struggle with getting them all done. I have to remind myself constantly that I can't keep the same kind of lifestyle I had previously, not yet anyways. I have always spread myself thin, but now I have a little bit less energy to spread, and it's affecting my commitment to my goals this year.

In that regard, I'm having a hard time not beating myself up over some of the things I've been missing. And this is where I have to keep my eye on the prize daily. I can't have these vague large numbers I want to achieve in half a years' time. I need to refocus on my daily goals and work on making consistent effort again. Whether or not I reach the end goal, the chances are much higher if I focus on the day to day progression.

On a positive note though. I have achieved something that wasn't on my personal requirements, or something I had not spent a lot of time thinking about earlier this year. I taught at boot camp. Whether or not my lessons were successful (i'm not sure how to gauge that) my confidence level certainly jumped. Although my nutrition lecture turned into more of a 'lecture' than I intended, I've been excited about Ba Gua ever since I suggested it, and I really felt good about it. Everyone tried really hard to learn a very complex and totally new style of movement, and I was super impressed with everyone at the boot camp. Watching everyone's successes and struggles during the fitness test really made me feel inspired. To be able to witness people pushing themselves beyond their own limits, it was incredible to be a part of. So thank you to everyone who committed themselves to an intense day of kung fu. Amazing!

I'd like to finish with a quote by a deep thinker I know...

"Why did Humpty Dumpty fall off the wall Mel?... He took his eye off the prize"
- Simon Cox (my brother in law)