Here's the funny thing. I have so much going on right now, and so many half written blogs that I just can't seem to really ever make a point of. I like writing not just to say, this is where I am. But to say, this is where I am, and where are you? I realized last night, and today, that I have chosen to surround myself with people that may not necessarily understand kung fu, but support me because they understand the higher goal. Kung fu is nothing without students, and one of my life long goals is to forever practice and grow. The other day I was listening to a Deepak Chopra guided meditation where he said growth is the most noble desire.
I've been reading a lot of my team member's journals and it seems like many people are at the same place. I like to use the word floundering because that's how I feel. We all know we have goals that are important to us, and that we want to achieve, but we're struggling with the discipline, motivation, and follow through. During my time in China I encountered this at least once a year. My yearly plateau. Usually it was in the spring, but I know the feeling. You look at yourself and you're like, "I'm not improving, I'm unmotivated, uninspired, unfocused", and you start to be pretty hard on yourself. You know, why am I wasting my time here? What's the point of this? Why do I keep forcing myself to do this stuff? What's the point, what's the point, what's the point? I don't know how many times I've said that in the past 5 years.
And I guess the answer is, and my point is, that whether you're following through on all your goals or not, if you look back, maybe sometimes farther back than you really want to, you'll see why you're doing what you're doing. You'll remember what your life was like before you had put all this pressure on yourself. You'll see how much you've grown and you'll see that it's worth it. It was worth it back then, and it's worth it now, because in the future, you'll look back at yourself today and see how much more you've grown. That's the point. And that's the life I want to live. How about you?
