Saturday, 3 December 2011

Motivation

As we come closer and closer to our Christmas holiday, it's becoming progressively more difficult to stay focused on my training. I tend to spend large portions of my day (and my meditation) thinking about all the things I want to do, people I want to see, and the food I want to EAT!

Our class as a whole is actually depressing to spend time with. We bicker with one another almost constantly. It's getting to the point that I find it hard to look at some people without 'blowing a gasket'. I really try and make an effort to push myself in training, and I get so tired of my own classmates bringing me down. I am generalizing here, but really, I'm struggling to enjoy their company sometimes.

To add to the lack of focus, our Shifu is in Beijing at the moment applying for all the visas he needs to travel this Christmas break. In his place he has appointed one of the coaches to drill us in forms and work to improve our movements. I really respect this coach, and I understand how hard it must be for him to take over our class for the last couple weeks before our break, so I'm really trying to show him my respect by training hard and focusing on the advice he's given us, but again, there are some members of my class who seem determined to bring down the atmosphere of our training.

This is the hardest time of the year for me to train. I want to push myself to the limits, because soon we will have a lot of time to rest, and I feel as though I'm being held back in some respects by the people who should be helping me to keep my focus.

Well that was a bit of a rant....

1 comment:

Jeff Brinker said...

Luckily for your class, they have a great leader in you. I am sure you make your instructors there as proud as you have made me here.